December 2009
54 posts
lighting up
falling, failing
watch me seep through the cracks watch me disappear into the darkness of the well slipping, sliding falling, failing through life the conscious that use to be so precise now decided not to give a fuck light me up let the lines disappear through my passage give me what i want and i won’t let anything stand in the way health won’t be an issue as long as i get my fix the a’s went...
November 20th, 2009
allthelivesimnotliving:
All I want to be is happy.
soooo then start here
at grandmas
my sisters a bitch, like normal. i keep threatening that santa won’t bring her presents but she’s still persistently being a bitch. the irritation i feel in the room makes me need a cig and i’m going to go hide in the basement to smoke a bowl. hopefully then i’ll feel better :)
i smoke waaaay too much lol
and i’m beginning to not give a fuuuccck
oh no i lost credit in 4th hour after two weeks =X
i think it’s fucked up that brittany murphy died
pisssssssssssed
stupid bitch didnt get me cigs like she said she would
i reminded her like 4 times
don’t force me numb don’t tell me to be quiet i need my mind, i need my thoughts keep the creative side strong deep contemplation still arising just keep my thoughts clear keep them beautiful make the flower breeze come show me the beauty everywhere i go with a promise i will ask you; to not mention i failed myself, by resorting to you
astonished
i did my homework for once :)
this is it, this is internal
don’t say you care, if you don’t
dont talk to me, if you don’t
don’t bother with me, if you don’t
if i’m not worth it, then just don’t bother
don’t give me false hope
don’t make me care when i’m on a one way street
don’t let me set expectations
don’t let me be me, at least not around you
just let me be cuz i’d be...
“The insanity of the collective egoic mind, amplified by science and technology,...”
– Eckhart Tolle (via myserendipities)
“Insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of...”
– Insanity is sanity. (via eastsealove) this can be true, at times
i’m trying really hard to not feel alone
but i want to be held and i want to feel loved..
i realized describing it as terrorfied sounds more realistic than scared
constant
state of dread overpowering me
ain't that a bitch
i’m always nauseous cuz i never eat but i can never eat cuz i’m always nauseous
i should of known when you deitcated this song to...
This is the soundtrack… to one specific girl’s life The soundtrack to one specific… girl’s life You can stick this specific song in your Head Automatica folder, snuggle it right up in your Head Automatica Folder [Verse 1:] By the time that she wake up and smear on her make up She’s dressed to kill, no heart behind her A-cup Silly girl from upstate, I could have loved...
Shawna
thanks for being like a daugher to me over teh last year i have really enjoyed it your great person very deep and emotional and sooooo mature beyond your years no matter what the duells say your a great girls with a heart of gold i admire that in you
take me back in time.. to the good ole days
i feel like shit… constantly
i forgot to take my pill and i remembered my dream last night..
holy fuck
i just checked my weight and within 3 days i’ve somehow lost 10 pounds
i’d rather get kicked out than live with someone who doesn’t believe i’m ill. fuck yourself bitch